I used to be a gamer.

I used to play videogames 24/7 and I may say that my golden years were back in the days when I was playing Ragnarok Online... I started it long long time ago and played it basicly 6 years in a row. Still nowdays I feel like I realy want to come back, is like a drug you can't never get rip off it. And thanks to this game I forged very good friendships.


Few weeks ago I meet with Kalle, a friend from Helsinki and we started to speak about games, we both like Zelda and he really likes my Zelda necklaces well who dosen't? they are so cool :D !
But whatever we keep on talking hours and hours about other games like Baldur's gate which is coming out again quite soon  and they asked me to play it through with few more friends.. About Minecraft and of course about League of Legends.. Game that I USED to play all day long just for fun or maybe In a bit more " serious business",
But somehow I can't see me doing this again.. I don't have time to be a nerd, well I am actualy such a white and nerdy to be honest. But now, If someone ask me about games or be a gamer or a nerd .. I just feel if I say yes! I am! like all those girls wanna be gamers with freak tattoos and start wars T-shirts

I have this inner part of me telling all time " just go and play few LoL games " "Just go and play Skyrim for a while" " just log into TS and see if your mates are there and they want to play some MC". But nowdays I have NO time my skills are quite low and I hate to see myself in that bad shape, so I rather to give up...

Its funny how everything change so fast, few months ago, like half year ago or a bit more, I was playing 24/7 then all of the sudden I stop for a while started to work more and going out after the hard winter... spring and summer was here so I started to go out and basicly work all time, and in few months, when I decided to go back I found myself just like back in the days; starting a new game.. no friends anymore to play with... is like starting a new game from the begining but without the joy and motivation that you have when you are a newbie

And yes all this reflexion came 'cause my friend made me play with Ezreal, and it was the first time I played with him and while I was playing, in my defense I must say that I wasn't that bad even tho we were playing vs Bots... I was feeling like "I'm not the gamer I used to be.." Is like the spark turned off.

No more #1 Support.

Espoo, Helsinki